Changes.

I promised myself recently that I will take care of myself more when I finish the whole school thing. I took step one today!

Achievement Unlocked!

I went to this gym in Las Pinas and applied to become a member. It has been at least 4 years since I stepped inside a gym so I am proud of myself. :3 Tomorrow is my "trial" + consultation day in the gym and I feel excited. This is one of those moments that makes me feel like I am really moving on in life. :)

You know, my weight has been a forever issue in the family, the gossipers next door, the "friends" back then, to Christian who never fails to annoy (and sometimes offend, yes...offend xD) me about the weight jokes, and of course, to myself who keeps on comparing with other people. I want to remove that issue/insecurity forever coz I really feel like getting nowhere if I don't start with that. With what I did today, life changes step by step. :) I will work hard to deserve the happiness I've been dreaming of. YAY!

Fighting, Reese! ^_^

I was going home with Jonnah a while ago and when I woke up, we started talking about "the future". I know that I have been rambling about the future like there's no tomorrow...but it's my way of releasing the tension in my mind so...please...bear with me.

So yeah, we were talking about it and I realized that I am more scared now than ever. Due to the fact that my TOR is a very ugly sight to see, I am so unsure about finding and getting a job. Will they hire a fresh graduate with so much failing grades? :( I know I have been doing well this past two years after shifting and not to boast about it, but I have been blessed to become a part of the Dean's List for the past 6 or 7 terms but, I am so unsure about what companies will think about me. If they ask me how come I have failing grades and high grades, I can probably defend myself but....I am too unsure. I don't think it's still too early for it but, I want to assure myself and my family (although I am not particularly in good terms with everyone) that I will get somewhere. I don't want the four years I spent in college to go down the drain just because I seem incompetent, lazy or whatnot.

To add to all of the 'what ifs' in my head, Inferiority Complex at its best. I even think my skills are not good enough. I suck at teaching. I get lost in research. I feel useless. Oh well. Where do I go now? What do I do?

I have a poster and power point to finish before 12 midnight so I will end it here. :| I will try to be productive. I'll think about these things some other time.

thank you for listening to my rants and shiz.

Things that never happen in a typical Simbang Gabi

So tonight my family and I went to the mass and went on with the usual routine. After the mass, we were waiting for my brother because he had a meeting with some other kids for a sports fest. So I was sitting on one side quietly playing  Tetris although I was losing already because the blocks were coming down too fast D: when suddenly this random 16-year old kid of our family friend came up to me and asked if he can talk to me about something. Being a "responsible" noona (older sister in Korean--pardon my use of said language, I am used to it), I said "Sure. What is this about?" He said that he likes this girl who is about 3 years older than him, the daughter of one family friend who they're close to, a graduating college student who's "pretty serious about anything". I was so clueless about who it was and told him that there's nothing wrong about liking someone older as long as both parties are mature enough to handle responsibilities and he was like, "Really? So if I told you that I really like you, will you be okay with it?"

*Insert facepalm* - My head was going "------loading---------error" because I seriously cannot comprehend his confession to me. I know he's a really nice kid but, no. That's not my thing. With that, I shall end the post. I would rather not talk about the other details.:))

-SHJ

Just a dream

I had the weirdest dream (so far) last night.

There's a difference

Your is an adjective
You're is short for "you are". :)

Tagboard!

Huzzah! Before I actually go back to work, I wanna create organization in this little blog so I will tag them accordingly:

Life Plans: Life After You

Warning:

Emo post below. hahaha. Read at your own risk.

Right now, I should be editing our thesis for its final submission on Wednesday but here I am writing another blog post. The reason for this blog post is the thing that has been bothering me for the longest time (at least for the last two months).