Random Rant

I'm not the only one, you know?

Am I giving a very warm vibe to my students?

I don't want to think so high about myself but I am finding it really weird that a lot of students go to me for consultation/tutorial. It's really bothering me. I mean, I gave off this "serious teacher" vibe every time I am in class...but...the tutorials kept coming. I even started rejecting schedules for this week coz it made my social life suffocate again. Just like the old days.

The things that happened while my internet died this morning

Me to myself: Reese, here is a list of things that you've realized in the past weeks.

Happy Hearts Day

Today was a roller coaster ride. A fun one. For the first time ever, I actually enjoyed my LEAP! :)

• Basic Korean Class with Eri~ and nae dongsaengs who got surprised when I entered the room
• Buying things from the 'market' with only 3000 won and a 1000 won donation from Eri
• Jang Geun Seuk's face. You should be my pet...FOREVER. Oh, bring Song Joong Ki too!
• Work- poster making + tarpaulin printing + getting frustrated with the forever slow computer
• Cheap lunch + Wicked Oreos with Rachelle
• Insiang LEAP
• CHRIS KENDALL. - The perfect date for V-Day!=)) and I will finish the date with him tonight! :D
• Actually finishing work shizzles
• Going home early
• Unexpected surprises!
• Happiness all throughout the day :3

For the first time in my life, I have experienced the feeling of being happy on a very special holiday with just memories to treasure for the rest of my life. Thank you friends and person! :)


On a side note...

Dear person, 
That moment when time seemed to stop and all you made me feel is pure happiness, that's the best gift you have ever given me. Thank you. Those 30 minutes was better than any flower, chocolate, or gift any other person received today. I am truly happy. :) Let's stay like this forever. haha. Jeongmal gomawo, oppa.

Yours,

Yeon Jae

I was going home with Jonnah a while ago and when I woke up, we started talking about "the future". I know that I have been rambling about the future like there's no tomorrow...but it's my way of releasing the tension in my mind so...please...bear with me.

So yeah, we were talking about it and I realized that I am more scared now than ever. Due to the fact that my TOR is a very ugly sight to see, I am so unsure about finding and getting a job. Will they hire a fresh graduate with so much failing grades? :( I know I have been doing well this past two years after shifting and not to boast about it, but I have been blessed to become a part of the Dean's List for the past 6 or 7 terms but, I am so unsure about what companies will think about me. If they ask me how come I have failing grades and high grades, I can probably defend myself but....I am too unsure. I don't think it's still too early for it but, I want to assure myself and my family (although I am not particularly in good terms with everyone) that I will get somewhere. I don't want the four years I spent in college to go down the drain just because I seem incompetent, lazy or whatnot.

To add to all of the 'what ifs' in my head, Inferiority Complex at its best. I even think my skills are not good enough. I suck at teaching. I get lost in research. I feel useless. Oh well. Where do I go now? What do I do?

I have a poster and power point to finish before 12 midnight so I will end it here. :| I will try to be productive. I'll think about these things some other time.

thank you for listening to my rants and shiz.

random. me over the years. :))

This is quite a senseless post. Sorry. o_O :D
Myself over the years.
Forgive me but I just realized that it has been a long time since I felt my natural hair, hihi. I braided my hair this afternoon and I got this:

I know it's uglehhh~~~

Natural hair + curlers (2007)

Spot me!:) (2008)

2012

It's been a long time. Waaaah. Should I just go back to my natural hair? :)))) which one looks better? the straight one, the curly one or the bob cut? :D